6 AM

Yes!! Exactly 6am in the morning, I started :

It's a time when I don't wake. I am always sleeping this time, looking an unachievable dream, assuming living my life in it. A dream of happiness and prosperity and success. Oh yes!! It's what everyone want.. Living in that state of mind  and sailing the pacific of dreams is what everyone wants it. It's a state where I am at its best, balanced life with family and friends. I can feel the warmth of my mother's hand over my head. I can sense the happiness of my father... Smiling like enjoying a joke, sitting in front of me, My elder brother is enjoying his holiday cooking with Bhabhi ji (wife). My tongue is wishing to taste whats in the air, the fragrance of spices, I can sense the glands underneath the tongue is releasing saliva at its max, I am about to reach a mouth watering state.

It's weird to say: I can sense  the fragrance of spices in the dream!

Climax is just about to start: & the only climax of the dream is waiting..! I dont need another night and force my unconscious mind to remember my previous dream and try to continue and finish it..We can think, we can force, but can never make it real. Stories in the dream changes every night....!

I like to taste what's been cooked before waking up! Come On brother, bring it up!  That state of mind got disturbed by a 5:30 am alarm in my Nexus 7 tablet. And that too is in bag pack.. Come on! who do such things, you can't disturb one  of the best moment of my life with an Alarm! I wish that alarm never went on! I raised the pillow and placed it over my head trying to unheard which can be heard loudly. The funniest thing in that state of mind at sleep is it can still do the trick and let you use the melodious alarm to be used in the dream like a horn or part of an event, it lets you involve the conscious acts to be part of dream you willing to enjoy. I felt to be like the same, Unconsciously, I was able to have that alarm be part of my dream. A nice beautiful car gets parked near my house, and someone is playing the tone of alarm in Car music player.  There  I heard voice of brother saying About to finish! and then felt someone knocking me on my back, once... twice.. again .. & again..! & my wife said sleeping next to me, " shut the alarm off!!!! "  

Seriously!!! it's like all the forces of world is against you and will not let me finish what I been dreaming.. Then the reality is about to start! its the actuality of you and things & gadgets & laptop and reading glasses, bottle of water stops you to place your foot on ground. Thankfully I closed the water bottle cap rightly. Who put that damn tablet in the bag pack.. Unorganized person like me & a swiss backpack designed to be used organised, placed was in the same room, right in front of me.  That organised backpack is like you been assigned an incident with high priority and to be solved in few seconds, else you will loose your state of sleeping after you turn off the alarm.

3 zips, assuming its in middle i opened it, like finding my tablet in the trash.. Oops! not found, and the alarm starts repeating again.. I tried to listen it carefully. looks like it's where I place my laptop. Unzipped the last one, and found it!! , It was covered with tablet cover, When I uncover it, the lights of the screen showing a bright alarm sign was so disturbing, that you feel like its a dumbest mistake to have the alarm in a tablet, but its need be turned off. The touch should work now! drag the roundy thingy to right its shuts off!  That step is like assigning a value of your variable in the standard program and assuming everything will work & the problem is solved.. Yeppie did it.. place it right near to thrash of gadgets as one another thrash.. and returning back to bed like catching a very important train that is about to close the door. I can't force my state of mind to reach back to the state of dream where I was.. Please let me finish it. I can force but can never reach back to the state I was.. I realized now, I lost the warmth of love, I lost the fragrance, I lost what I was about to taste.. Its like i lost everything which was never mine.

Every morning same thing happens, i have to turn off the alarm but I never try to wake up! But today I thought to do it right.. & I wish I will do it again & again everyday...

& everyone do that same thing what I do in the morning, fresh yourself up!  do a walk in the house.. & at 6 I was watching outside from the window in the door, making me realized I am trapped, have a look and feel it.

I felt trapped, but after writing I am not!! 

The difference of 2 & half hour!

Yes many people staying in US knows what I mean by 2.5 hours.. guess what.. Come on dumb!!
its the difference between a day & night.
Oops you got me wrong,we cannot have a day & night on the same place @sametime. but we can have it in 2 different places at same time.

Yes I am talking about India. When sun rises in India, it sets in US with a gap of 2.5 hours when daylight saving is turned on.. The reason to choose this topic is not to demystify the difference in timing at 2 places, but its explaining the state of indian people living in US, and waiting for Sun to rise in India, but the current state of mind is sometimes consumed in sleepiness, or checking USD to INR price in Xoom. or boozing with friends or may be still connected to Client's VPN and solving the issue, that seems can not be solved, or taking an offshore call, doing all the best you can do to deliver it, even though you still a man who cannot do delivery :)


My state is first state.. I am early sleeper, because I am Lazy.  I used to be another one ( working one) because of the what my company forced me to do.. They told me to deliver :)

Some of them are just waiting for Indian Sensex market to be open and ready to invest more in Indian stock. Oh yes, some are busy calling their girl friends in India, asking them to wake up, rise & shine baby, shona, etc etc...! :)
Its funny to see those people digging their own graves, when there half of eyes are shut, but mind never shuts. They are so good at it that even before the onsite project delivery comes to end or before go-live, they are ready to return home to India for their own marriage ceremony... Guess what! sometimes the delivery gets delayed :). Or Project managers threatened to not give you onsite in future.. It happens a lot, and whatever money we feel we earned goes in managing how beautiful  and dashing we want our marriage..!


This topic may not mean specific but it means a lot who are experiencing it and will be experiencing it soon, its like a state of mind that work for 2 places, where you can't handle both of them. For me that state of mind has almost covered my 2 years of life, and I wish I can live without it, but looks like it can never happen!!!

Lazy Sagar:

I am about to start a new chapter in my life. A chapter than can uncover those parts which I never known to, yes I am talking about what I can be..

I can be "NOT Lazy".. I can be "active". To do so I feel better to start sharing my thoughts to the world, I know its my first post, may be I have to share this on social media to get people. But yes now I am sure. I am going to... I like to become what I want to, & not what I am now.

Reason I made it named as Lazy Sagar because I wasn't able to get the name available for me. In 21'st century,  its really hard to get the name what you want to name your blog.
Firstly I thought  the name should be  "techstories", realized its used.
Then "anandstory", realized that one used too.  Guess what! person who owns it  is named as Anand Raj & its really funny to see whats his story is.. let me share the screenshot of his blog:

So hows his story.. Its funny to see people starts there first ever life blog line this. but still I can understand Two words  from it Testing & sad. 

Its bad to TEST on the name on reserved blog, which is worthless to you, and means something to someone like me, and its SAD for me...

oh man! my english is good kinda like it!! 

So after doing repeated search, I realized better be lazysagar, as this is what I am , & I have achieved this badge from what I been doing from the past, I have to carry it and change it with my actions..

Someone has said it right "Action speaks louder than words!!!" but for a blogger words are what that he can only type!! :)

I am happy to write what I wrote now. & I wish myself all the very best and best of luck to able to write a wonderful chapter in my life.